Even so, for me, still is the same. Through out this week, busy with studies and work, seems I forgot everything about my worries. Forgot about how miserable I'm, forgot how lonely I'm, forgot about how much wimp is I'm, forgot how much time I wasted just to get a person to like me, and forgot how hell is my life. Seems it's all just a short break amnesia from all the worries that I have. Not to mention, the busiest week of my life is this week. Damn tired!...
But when it comes to Saturday, all the worries come back and hunted me for two more days and maybe for the rest of my weekend life. Its just like a clock, every time it reach 12, it will goes again and again until its battery weaken to death. Just same as me...
Today, my roommate seems to be nice to me, ask me to join him for lunch and also take me for a shopping at Alamanda. He is sure a very nice guy, and even the person always helps me with my life. Maybe he knows from the look of my face, how miserable I'm, just being nice to cheer me up. Thanks a lot!, my buddy, you are the best roommate ever that I have..
But seems, even he's hard work to cheer me up are not really working, I just show my happy & smiling face so that he may not be worried. Deep inside, still its an empty soul, cracking bit by bit.
Finish going out until 4pm, back again to my small cage, trap my self at my room, pretending that I nerd, always studying, pretending to be happy, even so its a fake smile, pretend to laugh loud like crazy over anime, still deep inside are shallow with nothing.
Conclude that, it just my normal ways of spending time over my weekend. It just how a person who am I spending his life during his weekend. And that is how it goes every week, every month, every year and maybe every decade of my future life.
Still is me that you all knows...
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